Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas……

I had a chat with a dear friend the other day and they told me I should start writing again its been a year since I last blogged and they missed it. To be honest I missed it to. Not so much the blogging as in writing but the place I’m in when I do blog. I’m totally out of my comfort zone when it comes to writing. But hey when we are weak He is strong.

There are many things I want to write but I just don’t  know where to start. So I thought id read over a book a little someone gave me to write my thoughts and daily jackass’ness haha. This day in the book stood out to me as one of the things on my heart at the moment is acts of worship.

8^th March 2009

While I was at church the other day they threw in a golden oldie (that’s what my mum would call it ha ha) and what a golden one it is..

“Great is thy faithfulness….”

“All I have needed your hand has provided.”

What a fantastic song.

I remember when I was a kid I used to slat the old school songs. Wasn’t quite sure why I did, maybe it was because of the lack of quality singers around me when I was at church ha ha. But that now I know was what David meant when he said “make a joyful NOISE unto the Lord.” But as I’ve got older and spent so much time in church where there’s guitars being slashed and concert lighting. You tend to miss the simplicity of what it used to be. Don’t get me wrong I love the way worship in church has become more relevant to today’s society. In my own personal walk the relevance helped keep me in church. It totally uplifted me when I really needed it, and even when I thought I didn’t need it.

“Great is thy faithfulness Lord unto me…”

That is so simple but just all truth.

So while listening to this song I start to pray and confess it over and over. As I meditated on that truth another came into my heart “He does not change, He is the same today, yesterday and forever.” And that reminded me of a sign I saw while I was in a bar on Tioman Island “I don’t fear tomorrow for I have seen yesterday and love today” I began to think how easy it is to fear tomorrow and allow the worries of today pass to tomorrow. So we end up starting a new day in the past. When we do that we never start each day a new. We are always lagging behind. I’ve lived like that and it sucks. But once I made God my first Love that lagging changed very quickly. I learned that no matter what happened yesterday

“I am the righteousness of God through Jesus Christ today yesterday and forever”

“I am in the world but I DO NOT conform to it”

“l live not under the law, but grace”

I trust God for today. I know He will help me make today count because “great is His faithfulness.” Its not easy sometimes but we all know that living a God life is a hell of a lot better than one without Him.

“I do not fear tomorrow for I know it is in Gods hands. I live today because of Gods unending love and amazing grace for me”

Matthew 6:34

Good afternoon guys from a not so sunny Singapore....
Ok so good news today, my employment pass got approved by Ministry of Man Power. Bad news for all you guys back home in London, i'm not moving back anytime soon. But i'm sure your all getting on fine with out me haha.
It really has been an answer to prayer, as many of you know ive been praying and believing for the pass to come through for a little while now. So big thank you to all of you who have been sending emails and sms's filled with encouragement. And a big thank you to all of you who have been standing with me in prayer.  
If any of you are waiting for visa's or passes or the right job or just a job in general. Take comfort knowing that God knows all your wants and needs (see verses below)


Philippians 4:19 (New King James Version)
And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

Psalm 23:1 (Amplified Bible)

THE LORD is my Shepherd [to feed, guide, and shield me], I shall not lack.

They are just a few verses that i held on to while i was waiting for my pass to come through. While i was  waiting on God. When i say i was "waiting on God" i don't mean i was kicking back and just waiting for Him to open the doors. Even though God is Thee Almighty God and can do ALL things, that doesn't by any means give us the right or opportunity to just sit back and do nothing. We have to be pro-active and act on His Word (His instruction). In this case i needed a job so I spoke to people about work, looked for jobs, shared with people i trust my situation, spoke to my pastor about it and listened to his advice and acted on it. Its all to easy for us to chill out and just think God is gonna do it all for us..........

Sorry if this is a rude awakening for anyone who reads this, but it just doesn't work that way. 
It says in Proverbs 10:26 "as vinegar to the teeth and smoke to the eyes, so is the lazy man to those who send him."
So if God is sending us, or wanting something for us we must not be lazy but go and make a start. I know its easy for me to say "don't be lazy."Yes sometimes it is hard to know what to do, but that is why we have a relationship with the Holy Spirit. He speaks to us and guides us if we are willing to wait on Him, hear Him when he speaks and listen to what He Says. So if you don't know where you need to start looking for work, or you aren't sure what to do about the visa then spend time yielding to the One who knows ALL things.

1John 1v20 "But you have an anointing from the Holy One, and you know all things." 


Our walk with God is by no means easy or free from trail and tribulation.
Matthew 7:14
"narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it."



 But what we do have is the awesome strength of God on our side. 
Psalm 34:19 
Many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the LORD delivers him out of them all.


A while ago i went to a meeting and the speaker said "many seek out famous speakers to get a revelation from God, to get a word from God. But all you truly need to do is believe that God will give you a word or revelation when ever you open His word. After all it is His word so where better place to hear God speak than from His word." At the time i was going through some battles in my life. When I got home I sad on my bed and thought about what that speaker said. I held my Bible and thought id give it ago. I knew i had a personal relationship with God, and know He hears me when i speak to Him. So i just said "I trust you Father, if I ever need a revelation or word from you I can open Your word and get it."So i opened my Bible and happened to turn Isaiah 41:13 "For I, the LORD your God, will hold your right hand, Saying to you, ‘Fear not, I will help you." For me that was such a personal message. At the time fighting through my battles i felt alone and weak. But after reading that verse I felt empowered, comforted and safe. As i began to meditate on that word I had a realization. The verse says "for i the Lord your God, will hold your RIGHT hand...." Begin on someones right side is a place of honor. We are seated at the right hand of God in Heaven (with Christ in the seat of honor). So for God to say He will hold my hand is awesome, but in this verse He is specifically saying YOUR RIGHT HAND. I realized at that moment that no matter how small we may see ourselves, God loves us so much that He would humble Himself to sand at our right side.
I guess the best may to finish this blog is to just say trust in God cos He trusts in you...... 

Who is it that holds You back???

We are all given gifts and abilities in some way shape or form. But all our gifts and abilities must be homed and fine-tuned for us to reach our full potential and be successful.

November 18 2008 Malcolm Gladwell published a book called “Outliers” in his book he examines how Microsoft co-founder Bill Gates achieved his extreme wealth, and how two people with exceptional intelligence, Christopher Langan and Robert Oppenheimer end up with such vastly different fortunes. Throughout the publication, Gladwell repeatedly mentions the "10,000-Hour Rule", claiming that the key to success in any field is, to a large extent, a matter of practicing a specific task for a total of around 10,000 hours.

With out having read this book “Outliers” we all no that we must work hard if we are to succeed in anything in life. Even as children at school we are taught that hard work amounts to success. As much as I think the “10000 hours rule” is a fantastic guide line for anyone to follow, I am not saying that just cos you put in 10000 hours into something you are going to be successful. For now lets think about what it takes for you to do that 10000 hours.

The most obvious place to start is time. You need to set aside or devote time to that gift or ability you want to succeed in. Along with the setting aside or devotion of time, is perseverance, determination and humility. Odds are that at some point you will face hard times in the road to your success, which will test your determination and your ability to persevere through to the other side. Humility is also a key to your success because there will be times where you have to submit and know that you made a mistake, but if you are humble you will listen to the advise your given and move on and learn from your mistakes. You will progress to the next level.

For me my gift has always been the ability to cook. Even as a child of 6 I used to cook flapjacks and cup cakes at primary school. As I grew up my cooking ability began to excel. I remember my Sister used to bake at home, so me being the younger brother wanted to be able to do what she could do and do it better. Even though it might not of been the best motivation, I was expressing determination. It was safe to say I had a raw talent when it came to cooking. But a raw talent will only get you so far. You need to stretch and test your abilities in order to fine-tune them to the point of success. 

When I left high school and started work in kitchens I soon found out that it wasn’t all plain sailing and my raw talent wasn’t going to get me far. I realized very quickly that I would have to start paying attention to the other people round me and loose the “I know it all attitude,” most 16-year-old's have. Once I was able to kick the attitude, I was able to start learning at a accelerated pace. 
When I started work, as a chef I was working about 60 hours a week and every job there after was never less than 75 hours a week. But for me my learning didn’t stop when I walked out of work. I was cooking at home trying out different ideas I had, cooking for friends, reading recipe books, watching cooking shows and even dreaming about cooking. Since the age of 16 till now there hasn’t been a day that’s gone by that I haven’t thought about cooking or something to do with cooking. Working those hours is not easy. I remember days when I would wish I would fall down the stairs at the train station in the morning just so I wouldn’t have to go to work, times when I’ve finished work cleared out my locker and said to myself “I’m not going back,” and still go back the next day. Anyone who says success comes easy is a liar. Not one great man in the history of the world hasn’t had a day when they’ve wanted to quit and throw in the towel. So take comfort in knowing you’re not the only one.

There where two sayings I was told a few years ago that came to mind as I was thinking about what to write on this subject. “you have to shovel the bad things to get to the good things” and “the more you put into it now, the more you’ll get out of it later in life.” Both very true statements, you have to dig a long way to uncover any precious resource and even when you do find it you still have a long line of processes to refine it to its optimum level. For instance crude oil, you have to dig deep into the earth to find it, and then ship it to the refinery to be processed into a marketable product. All in all at the end of the day you have to work hard at something to be successful.

Take a look at Paul in the Bible he wrote half the books in the New Testament. But interestingly enough it was 10 years after his encounter with Jesus on the road to Damascus that Paul began his ministry. I’m sure he spent well over 10000 hours preparing himself, spending time with God, fellowshipping with other Saints and studying the Bible in those 10 years. Paul himself says in Ephesians 5:15 (Amplified) “making the very most of time [buying up each opportunity].” Time in effect is not on our side, But God is and we should make the most “buy up every opportunity we get” to exercise, grow and develop the gifts we have been given.

So in effect if you are willing to persevere and work on something whole heartedly enough I’m sure you can make a success of it. At the end of the day the only thing that ever holds you back is you, no circumstances, no people and no evil thing(because we have overcome all evil through Jesus Christ) it just boils down to our willingness, courage and determination to stick something out and run our race.

Realization Of A Prayer.....

Hi guys was having my prayer time this morning in my favorite escape the shower, and as the water was running over my head blocking out the sound of the world around me… Hahahahahaha I just read that and is sounds so dodgy, like something from a cheap love novel hahaha but ill leave it in cos its funny hahaha Anyway… I began saying the Ephesians prayer (Eph 1:7-23) and I got to the last few verses and something clicked, not in my body haha in my spirit. I was saying “and He put all things under His feet, and gave Him to be head over ALL THINGS to the Church.” As we all know we are the body of Christ and we are the Church. Ok before I go on I must track back a bit so you know where im coming from on this one. Right so my background for those of you that don’t really know. I was born out of wedlock my mother wasn’t in the position to look after me; she had other children of which I think all where in care. So she put me up for adoption, good thing was she asked for a Christian family for me to go into. Enter my fantastic Mum and Dad Michael and Esther Ross-Watson and my awesome Sister Angie, who was adopted 4years before in Indonesia from an orphanage (which is an awesome story as well but not my’n to tell you’ll have to wait for her to write it, and she’s a hell of a lot better writer than me haha). Right so it was the beginning of an awesome life for me and the end of a good one for my family…. Ahahaha only joking ☺. Time went on and I grew up (physically not so much mentally haha) I started at school which was connected to the church my dad was pasturing in, and that’s when I began to raise eyebrows. Obviously if you know me im not your average pastors son. Tattoos, interesting colorful past and quite outspoken. Which I believe is a good thing cos I always asked God to make me different to the stereotype Christian guy, weedy, wet, soppy, lame, and bad dressed. Also a good thing cos God has made us HEAD AND NOT THE TAIL… So we need to arise and stand out just as Jesus did. Anyway going slightly off point sorry. Errr where was I??? Ow yer right, raising eyebrows. When I was 5 I was just like every other 5-year-old boy. Not well behaved to say the least, which is understandable right your 5 and you’re a boy haha. So the thing is some “religious people” in the church thought that cos I was Pastor Michaels son I couldn’t be naughty. That I should be reading my bible praying for all the other kids and listening intently to the boring-ass teaching in Sunday school. Truth was I don’t think I could of read the bible if I tried. I didn’t do to well with the whole reading writing thing for a long time. When I got to about 8 the old head mistress (Mrs. Butcher who was fantastic cos she didn’t judge me she just saw me as any other little boy) left we got a new head mistress who’s name I wont write because it just wouldn’t be fair. Well she had a big issue with my dad and the senior pastors son (who was and is a best friend of my’n) so she took her frustration out on me and him. As a result I was never in lessons and never did any work, which equaled bad marks and not a lot of learning. So that carried on for a few years. then I finished school and started secondary school. This entered a whole new realm of crap for me. Not so much living in my folk’s footsteps but more my sisters. She is the brains of the two of us. She’s like an A* model student, im not to sure if she ever got told off in school. Well suffice to say I was the total opposite. I hated doing the school work didn’t get on with that many kids at school and not many teachers either, surprisingly haha. The final years where the worst ones cos I gave up on the whole learning thing I thought it was a waste of time, and if im quite honest I still do think that half the stuff the tried to teach me is. I was never going to be a math genius or a lawyer or writer or anything like that. There was only really one thing I liked at school and that was cooking. So funny cos I thought I was a right hard nut at school and the one lesson I liked I wore an apron…. Massively hard-core I was haha. Well finished school just about. And went straight into working as a chef. I cooked professionally for about 6 years, went to college didn’t finish is cos it was pants. In the six years there were a few places I worked in, some bad relationships I got into, some very sticky situations I got my self into. There were some addictions/bad habits. Some extreme highs and a lot of extreme lows. I can deffo say it was a rollercoaster of a teenage life. 2006/16th of January just before my 22nd birthday was when things started to really change. I called my dad and said “dad I cant do this anymore, im on my own and I don’t want to be on my own any more I need God, help me.” So for the next like 3months my dad met me every morning at 6am before I started work prayed with me and read the word. There where a number of mornings I just didn’t wanna go to work id be in tears cos I hated it. But I knew I needed to do it. Yer I worked 110hours a week and slept 4 or 5 hours a night. But God wanted me to do it, He wanted me to rely on Him and His supernatural strength and not my own. So for 4 months I did as well as I could. I still really struggled to let go and allow God to fully take control, which is why I ended up in hospital due to physical and emotional stress, which was becoming damaging to my body. Stupidly I didn’t listen to wat the doctors where telling me and I went straight back in to work in another kitchen, which again turned out to be a bad choice due to the head chef trying to make my life a living hell. He even said he was going to make life hell for me every day till I left. In the end I left and got a good job with probably the best head chef I have ever met or had the privilege of working for. I started in the job with Gods hand on my cooking abilities, which soon became my own big headedness. I stopped trusting in God for everything and began relying on my own abilities. I slipped into a hole of getting back into things of past and didn’t quite know wat to do. The good thing was I was grounded in church I had some awesome friends that really stuck their neck out for me and began praying and interceding for me. Not to mention my family. Then on a Monday morning after staying at my sisters house, I had a missed call and voice mail from her saying “Tim give me a call when you get up.” I thought nothing of it, went into the back garden and just happened to look up into the sky, and wat happened next blow my mind and still does. It was the first time I had ever heard the Holy Spirit. I was standing there looking at the clouds and the blue sky thinking about going for a bike ride, and all of a sudden this voice said “your dads got cancer” I was like wat the hell man wat was that?? Then it happened again “your dads got cancer” I freaked out I was like wat did I drink last night did someone put something in my drink, wat, wat, wat….!! Then a third time but this time is was slightly different “your dads got cancer… but I don’t want you to worry he will be ok and your going to be of help to him. ” I couldn’t work it out it was nuts. So I though ok ill call my sister and see wats up. Sure enough I called her and she said, “Tim errr dads not well… he’s got cancer” ,I didn’t know wat to say cos I wasn’t shocked at all I was freaked out. I think the thing that got me most about it wasn’t the fact my dad had cancer or that I was told he had it before anyone told me, it was the fact that I was going to help him. My folks had always been my strength how could I help my dad. This all happened at the same time as my work going bad cos God had taken His hand off my ability to cook, a failed relationship and numerous accidents in the kitchen and outside the kitchen. The final straw for me was when I was on my way to church running a little late and I got in to a motorbike accident. Long story short I had to choose between hitting a broken down car, a moving taxi, a wall or the floor. I opted for the floor. So I ditched my bike only to get stuck under it, got smashed into the wall and the bike now fully on top of me dragging me up the road. I got up didn’t know wat was wrong with me all I could see was my bike on the floor all scratched up and petrol around it. So with out thought for my self I picked it up and moved her into a safe place so no one would hit her. Then finally the pain struck me I had blood coming out of my knee ankles hip and couldn’t breathe properly. The ambulance came within 5mins they loaded me up in the back and examined me. They said they wanted to air lift me cos I had broken ribs and a possible punctured lung. But couldn’t cos the chopper was at another accident, so they rushed me into a&e. Stripped my clothes off and began to do check’s and so on so forth. By this time I didn’t feel to bad didn’t know if it was shock or wat . The main lady in there stood at the foot of the bed and said “are you ok?” I said, “I think so just feel a little bruised why?” she replied “well you shouldn’t be talking to me cos your meant to have broken ribs and a punctured lung you should be in surgery” I just said “ow.” I got x-rayed and was discharged within about an hour of being rushed in, when I was leaving they asked if I needed a taxi or anything I just said no im gonna go get my bike and ride it home. They thought I was nuts they couldn’t believe it haha. I got home all bashed up and knew that the only reason I was alive was cos im no good to God dead. With that I handed in my letter of resignation and went out to Singapore to be with my dad as he was getting treatment for the cancer. I was out there for 8 weeks, and as the last week came about I started to wonder wat am I going to do when I get back to London?? Now before I went out to Singapore and I was still working as a chef. I prayed for God to make the next step He wants me to take to be so obvious that in my stupidity I couldn’t mistake it. So with out fail He answered I got offered a job in Singapore the 2nd to last day that I was there. I too the job, which turned out to be just a way for God to get me into Singapore. To get me away from everything so he had me to Him self, so He could begin to really do some hardcore work in me. I spent 4months out of work trusting God for everything. As I was starting to get a little low, God introduced to me this English bloke who was doing a bible school course out here, turned out he wasn’t just some English bloke, we very quickly became close friends. He helped me and mentored me through a very very tuff transitional period in my spiritual life. He is now a very dear friend and brother to me. During the four months I began to get a hunger to read my bible, ask questions about the word, I had a hunger for God and for the first time in my life even thought the world, as I knew it around me was crumbling I was at peace. There’s a lot more in between but that’s a whole other note. Now the whole way through my life ive always loved God I just didn’t like church. Im still the same I don’t overly like church I find it hard to submit to it but I know I must bite my tongue. Cos God wants me there. I started of this note by taking about the revelation I had about the Ephesians prayer. I told you my testimony cos I wanted you to see how far I went from the body of Christ. Because it makes the revelation more powerful. Even though I wasn’t living by faith I still had a concept and idea of how we should be as Christians and as a church. I could never understand why there is separation in churches and also between churches. The revelation a had was “Jesus is the head over all things of the church” that means He’s the head of my church your church the church down the road with the funny looking old people that smell like incense old wooden chairs and dusty hymn books. Jesus is the head of the church; you go there to worship Him and His glory not the flesh pop-sickle of a pastor Gods using to teach you the word. Im not gonna say lets all strive for world peace cos im not a beauty queen, but I will say, for goodness sake stop bitching about other churches we are all one body of Christ He is the head of all things to the church its His fullness that fills all of us no matter what church you go to. We’re all using the same handbook to life (the bible) no matter wat translation it’s the same book. So lets start teaching from it instead of tiptoeing around it cos we don’t want to offend the people in church. Blow tiptoeing, if someone don’t like it let them wine and moan about it, if your teaching Gods word and sad little self absorbed people get offended fine its not your problem, God will deal with them. Your doing wat God has called you to do. Sorry bit strong, but it winds me up to the point of spinning. If we can’t get on between denominations and live as one as the whole body of Christ how can we go into the marketplace and make an effective difference.

Four Steps...

I realized the other day that its been a long time since ive written anything and put it on here. So I thought id share something ive been learning lately. It’s just a short one nothing to long but its very effective and it truly does work. But like I always say please don’t just take my word for it really go and try it for your self. So im a big fan of the late and very great Kenneth E Hagin. And I have a devotion book written by him. Over the last 5days its been talking about 4simple steps so success. 1. Say it 2. Do it 3. Receive it 4. Share it Right so fist one “say it” is basically taking about when your believing for something from God. Its all well and good you believing for it but if you don’t make your request known then they wont come about. “…but in everything by prayer and supplication LET YOUR REQUESTS BE KNOWN TO GOD…” Philippians 4:6 I know God hears our heart but its quite obvious He wants use to vocalize it, to speak it. When your in church you sing right even if you’re an awful singer cos you want to praise God with your lips and words, so why is it any different when your praying or asking for something??? So Say It, vocalize it, confess it aloud. “Do It” Ok this ones a little harder to explain but ill give it my best shot. One the most important time for us as faith-walkers is the time between praying (saying it) and when we receive what we are believing for (receiving it). The reason being because this will be when the devil will try and deceive us into thinking “no Gods not going to give it to you, cos you don’t believe its going to happen, you don’t have faith.” This is where “do it” comes in. When we have finished praying we need to stand on believing we will receive wat so ever we shall ask and pray for. So Jesus answered and said to them, “Assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ it will be done. And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.” Matthew 21:21-22 And we need to start saying it continually “I thank you Father for that which I have received.” Even if you haven’t got it yet you keep confessing you will receive it and that it’s on the way God’s taken care of it. Now don’t get me wrong don’t be like Joey in friends and make a Porsche out of boxes. Im talking about saying it, pretending its there and you can see it in your driveway so you make a pretend one for the time being. That’s just mad hahaha. Please do let me know if you are doing that and I will pray with you hahaha. So “do it” act on it speak it out and believe you will receive that which you pray for. “Receive It” This ones not so hard to understand well I hope not, if you have troubles grasping this one then… well God bless you :) Thinking of the simplest way to put it so it can’t be miss interpreted???? Hummmmmm “thinking” errrrr take what is given to you… hahaha No just joking. Say for example at Christmas someone gives you a gift, what do you do? Do you say “no thank you I don’t want it” or “ow thank you so much, merry Christmas to you too” and open the thing like there’s no tomorrow. The second one right??? Please don’t be an ass and say the first one. It’s the same when God gives you something receive it with your arms wide open and a big smile on your face and thank Him. He doesn’t have to give you anything, be thankful and receive, for in His eyes you do deserve it, your worth every gift in the world to Him, He loves you and wants to bless you. LET HIM. RECEIVE that which He has for you. “Share It” Ok don’t take this on to literally. Yes if you ask believe and receive a car then give people lifts and stuff. Im not saying by sharing you must lend your car out to people. Unless God gives you a Ferrari then by all means lend it to me :) hahaha. No im more talking about you sharing how amazing God is in the way that He answers prayers, and how if you live by faith and follow His word you can live prosperously in both the spiritual kingdom and the world. Sharing is a testimony to God greatness. It’s a testimony to His unending love and amazing grace towards us who believe. Plus in you sharing your planting Heavenly seed into others. You and I both know what happens to heavenly seed, its grows and there is a harvest. So if you share your giving and if you give ”it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." Luke 6:38 So like I said at the beginning don’t just take my word for it, try it. In my experience it truly does work. Please feel free to leave feedback and if you have any testimonies or experiences of these four things please share them. God bless :)

As Time Goes On...

A thought came to mind the other day as I was saying to a friend, “I couldn’t believe it’s my 25th next January. It feels like only yesterday I was at high school. “Yeah, yeah I know not that old right? But saying that made me really think about it. Why is it that as we get older the days, weeks, months and years seem to go by faster and faster? So I thought I would google it. The average answer that came up was that one year in comparison to your age is smaller each year, for example when you’re 5 one year is 1/5 of your age so it seems like forever for your next birthday to come, or when you are 30 one year is 1/30 of your age so it doesn’t seem like a long time just a small one year. Simple answer hey? It may well be true but it just wasn’t enough for me so I just began to think about it further. I began to think about some of my earliest memories. My memories from first school are some of the best ones cos everything was new and even though I was a slow learner I used to take in so much every day. I was soooo small and the world around me was sooooo huge. I remembered counting down the minutes and hours till Christmas day and how many sleeps till my next birthday. At that age it felt like time was my enemy that it was going too slow. I wanted to grow up quicker than time would let me. I would speak of “when I’m 10 I’m gonna do this…” as I’m sure all you guys did to. I even used to say I couldn’t wait to be old enough to shave!!! Stupid I can’t stand shaving. Thinking about it time felt as though it was an enemy when I was younger in that it wouldn’t go fast enough, and now it had become a new enemy. It was going too fast. So why? Maybe it is the reason I found on google. Or maybe it’s a collection of different things. Maybe it’s life itself? If you read the last note I wrote you would have read about me saying why young children find it easy to do and not ask, and how easy it is for us to put up walls and barriers in our lives. Well I guess this topic kind of ties in with this in a way. For example do you remember learning how to go to the toilet on your own? I personally don’t, and I don’t think about how to now when I go. Because it’s an everyday normal thing, something you can do in your sleep - a no brainier. Well the same can be said for life. When you get into a routine you find your days going by so fast that you don’t even have time to stop and think about it. Like I used to work in kitchens, and my life got into a massive routine. An average day would be as follows: Wake up: brush teeth, go to the toilet while brushing teeth (I used to work very long hours so every minute of sleep made a huge difference, so this would all be done in like 20mins) jump in the shower dry hair do hair get dressed while eating a banana. Ride 5 minutes to work. WORK (another repetitive 18hours) Ride home have a shower and go to sleep. It was like that day in day out week after week. Even my days off were the same most weekends. So life became a no brainier. Don’t get me wrong, I had to think at work but not hard cos I’d been cooking for ages so it just became second nature to me. I was learning every day but in comparison to the amount I learned in an average day when I was younger not a lot. So with I came to the conclusion that life went by faster as the years went by because of work. But thinking about that just made me think that there was more to it. Sooooo again I though more about it (having got to this point I had a headache due to all the thinking hehehe…) no I thought about how everyday life affects us. How the everyday things, the not so everyday things affected us, and how it makes us see life as a whole. We all go through our hard times, our shaping and molding times. Some come out of these times in good shape others in a worse shape than when they started. And when things like that happen you do tend to put up your guard more often, to question new things, be more likely to stay in some thing cos its easier to be in it, or just live with it cos change would just be effort. At some point we’ve all said one of these things or thought it, and I’m sure if your honest you’ve probably said it a few times. Whether it be a relationship, job, debt, or certain mindset. We just label change or new things to much effort and not worth the time. So I was like sure that must be the reason cos if we don’t like new things or we are skeptical about change than we wont be spending most of the day learning things taking in new things like we did when we where a child. The world becomes smaller cos you think you know pretty much all you need to know to go about life. And in all fairness you probably do know all there is to know about your life as it is. And even after this it felt as though there was more to it. So it was back to the thinking block. Worry right worry has to have a part to play in it. I mean when you worry you begin to stress over things, you begin to over analyze things, you obsess about things, you worry about what tomorrow will bring or next week, or worry that something in your past will come back and bite you in the proverbial. What does the Bible say about worry? Matthew 6 (New King James Version) 27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Now there are loads of verses about worrying but I thought these fit this subject so well. I’ll start with verse 34 it tells us “do not worry about tomorrow” ok this isn’t an excuse for you to say to your boss when he asks will you have that report done for tomorrow, I don’t know lets see tomorrow. No it just means not to worry. You still need to prepare and not be ignorant for tomorrow will come. (If you’re saying what if tomorrow doesn’t come then my friends I’ll say where is your faith?) I don’t think I need to go into the rest of the verse its quite self-explanatory. So on to verse 27. I think the Amplified Bible explains it better “And who of you by worrying and being anxious can add one unit of measure (cubit) to his stature or to the span of his life?” In other words where does worry get you? Nowhere good that’s for sure. It doesn’t solve any problems; it doesn’t make you any happier or clear your mind. In fact the only thing it does do is lead to more worry, more stressed out and bogged down with burdens. In Psalms 35:22 we are told to cast our burdens on the Lord. A burden is something that is emotionally difficult to bear, or a source of great worry and stress. How that’s not even the bible telling us that that’s the world. So why then do we allow these silly things to rule our lives, to sap the joy out of life, to stop us from learning all that we can and stop us from reaching our full potential in God? Because it’s easier to worry and stress about some thing we can see or foresee, than trust that which we can’t. Timothy 1:7 says, “God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of sound mind.” He made us with a sound mind; he didn’t make us with a mind of worry and stress. Okay so I’m gonna end on this. I don’t claim to be perfect – I’m human and still have trouble at times with worry and stress. But I truly believe that if we do as these scriptures tell us we will be well on the road to a full life. One of huge blessing, consistent learning, growing in wisdom and strength in the knowledge of God and being vigilante in numbering our days being sure we make each day count for the kingdom. Psalm 90:12 “So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.” Friends I don’t expect this note to give you all the answers – I’m not a scholar nor am I an amazing writer. I just hope that you will go away after reading this and look in the word for yourself, pray about it and just trust God and live for Him with Him and in the knowledge of Him. Be Blessed.

The Simplest Thing....

The Simplest Thing… Does a baby ask you why it must eat? Why must it sleep, breath or poo? No. Why? Cos they trust you 100% So why if a baby trusts you as their father or mother, do we question our Father In heaven? Do you ever find yourself reasoning with God when you’re praying? for example “God I will do your work and calling for my life, but can it not be here in this place, can I just move? I can't stand that lady! you know the one with the long winded voice who gets involved with everything at church." Its funny how many times we pray a pray of reasoning and wonder why we don't get an answer. Well the simple truth is right there in black and white in the Word. Jesus said to his disciples in Matt 18 “the doorway to the kingdom of heaven is through the heart of a child” Being born again we are to get rid of all the old and be refreshed and made new in Christ. It’s a softening, remolding, refining and strengthening process. When Jesus said “through the heart of a child.” He was referring to substance of a child’s heart. As you and I well know as time goes on its very easy to put guards up in our lives. Its very easy let our experiences corrupt the way we see things, read into situations and react to things. It is very easy to put a wall up around your heart, weather it is due to a string of bad relationships, a disrupted family life, insecurities and just all round pants life experiences. A child is moldable because they have no walls put up in their lives or round their hearts... "innocence". They are moldable because they have no reservations, fears or worries. They take what you say as truth cos they trust you. Like a child is pure in heart mind and soul, moldable and trusting. So should we be as new creations, babes in Christ. Born again in the spirit made clean by His blood, healed by His strips. We need to trust in Him and let penitence have her perfect work. The meaning of trust is “firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability or strength of someone or something” Do you have a firm belief in God? Is He not reliable? Is He not all things that are truth? Does He not have all the strength to do all things? I don’t need to tell you what I think and feel on these things, I know where I stand. But you should ask yourself where you do… Friend its simple. God is not a nutta who wants to make things hard for you. His ways are simple. Make the decision to do it and don’t ask about it…. Trust…